I have moved across the country and am studying what i want to do for the rest of my life, in where i think is the place where i want to do it.
Here's my dilemma. There are ties to where i'm from that keep me feeling for that place, while i know that nothing more is going to come out of them. So am i wasting my time wanting to keep trying to get more out of a quickly drying up well? Or should i keep going, digging deeper, and hope to find a new source of 'water'?
Is there hope for a new source, when all other parts of you tell you that there should be no hope? That things will always get worse before they get better, and that part of learning to love ones' self is loving someone else? And does loving someone else mean if they are not always the kind of person that you want them to be, you have to love them anyway?
So thats where i am now, stuck between a rock and a hard place. Help!
1 comment:
I feel like you need to do what you want that makes you most happy right now. You are starting in a new place and before you start doubting if its right or if there is any hope, etc.; you need to let the new place settle in a bit. You are jumping the gun a little bit-- you are at this place for a reason and already second guessing it. Enjoy this opportunity for a little bit--once the dust settles you'll be able to see more clearly. But I do understand where your coming from...it's hard to start something new without feeling a little melancholy I think.
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