Well, its official. I want to give up and throw my instrument against a wall.  I am just so far behind everyone in this studio, that it seems a little ridiculous for me to be even trying.  I mean, i  love that my teacher is understanding about the fact that i broke myself at my recital, but i just feel like every time i go to play, that i'm letting him down.  So who knows.  Maybe at the end of the semester, he'll be like... i'm sorry, you suck.  

Then finally, someone would agree with how i feel 95% of the time.